HOLIDAYS

wow... yeah this word used to sound music to my ears but not now it's like a curse ,i almost wish i was deaf so i would not hear this word. yay it's holidays but not exactly for me >=( i'll be stuck at home with NO MOOD to go out at all and i might not get to meet grape after working so damn hard and waited with every patience i force into my body..just great man how fair. I hope i find a job at least i'll survive my unfair teenage life trough maybe..argh i need to see you! it's like i'm living but i cant feel my heart beating haih distances...parents! IM SO HAPPY I GET TO LEARN DRIVING after my bday! GOODBYE boredoom! when i have enough money to live on my own n get my place i'll start being not SO bored arse-out gosh my happy ending with you ahahhaa.

LOOK im really sorry if im too sensitive sometimes, but im feeling all of these because i love you . I don't want to test your patience i never ever had the intention of hurting you. All i know that is so clear is that i love you, not like anyone before , not like anything before. Maybe that's the reason why i must response , i must care so much because it's you..not anyone else...why i get hurt faster , easier because my heart cripples on the fear of that we cant be the same again that i cant tell you how much i love you again. I have lose SO much losing you will be like going through all that because i love you. I'm not sure what time is this that i have written i love you...i love you. You allow me too feel so many things ive never felt before..you taught my heart to really love to trust and to beat. Without you, i would be a human shell with a heart that im not sure whether will beat again. I never thought i could ever feel such pain but yet such happiness. Love is confusing theres not enough words to describe it... im trying so hard to keep it. desire. it is so strong mayb because i nvr wanted more than you. I didn't mean to hurt you so much to piss you off and now it's so easy to argue .I didnt want it to be like this ...like now im afraid to open to u..ur the human i can always open too bt im afraid i hurt you..theres so many things i want to tel you..so many tears i cried for you..your the best miracle that has ever happened to me...losing you is taking everything from me i miss you..i miss the times when we call each other darlings..i miss thinking of u everytime..i miss smiling lyk a dork in school wen i receive ur sms ..i miss waki ng evrey morning n u being the 1st to wish me...i miss chating with u wen im bored and sudenly nothing seems bored..i miss wen u came up to me ..i miss ur beautiful smile i miss the emotions i feel beacause of you...i miss being perasan with you i miss braging and thinking im hot beacuse of u..i miss having someone i miss laughing everytime ppl tel me of the show shutter..i miss R20...i misss the time in the van i miss the time wen your in my room..i miss kissing the ber you gave me.... i can nvr do this with someone else..i cn nvr find another you


OHHH GOD... i really miss u!!!!!!! i mIssss uuuuuu

because of this i dnt miss the laid back me..i dont miss the i dont care me, i dont miss the past me... i miss u nvr in my life..i would ever say this to any1..bt u...

1.What are you craving now? ice cream (dont i always =) )

2. Have you given your first kiss away? sssshyeah

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? most they be blog buddies? if yes erm gabby, shabby and brenda? ahaha if no grace , gabby and another crapper *heeeeee*

*why 3 cause it'll be fun lah! dei....

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most? KLANG BAK KU TEH land! eheheheh

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? my dream already came true =)

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? yeah!ive experienced it too

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now? God , family members , friends and my love i would rather die than to lose these.

8. What is your type of guy/girl? HOT, honest and GRACEFUL? ahahaaha

9. What are you gonna do if your friends are sad? be there for them

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. brandon T ...TALL haha, vry nice and friendly

11. what's your first impression on the person who tagged you ? cool dude

12. Which type of person do you hate the most? i don't hate people but i certainly don't like perverted grown-ups ,its friggin sick(don't ask) nobody likes real life perves except God

13. What is your ambition? a perfect lover! a romatic hero? i dunno God tell me ahaha mabe a doctor hmm( though my patients will have to tahan lah i guess)*swt*

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet? tell it to my face man! bt in a nice way and i will change =)

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? God, has to be him

16. Are you a shopaholic or not? ARE YOU CRAZY DUH! i mean who doesnt like shopping it's like part of our daily needs =S

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you. one word?! N I C E

18. What will you do when someone faints in front of you? run and catch the person and help la if not run away ah? dei...

19. What makes you different? God =) Love =)

20. When is your birthday JULY 12 YOU GUYS BETTER RMB K!

i'm not joking ahhahahhaha!

i tag yeen yeen, pl blah blah la just do la k